我。。应该可以的吧。。？

还没开始做工之前，
很犹豫，
不知道自己的兴趣在那里，
因为。。
自己的选择只有。。
美甲师，美容师，空姐。。

当初最不想做的是美容这一行。。
结果，
我已经是个美容师了。。
身边的朋友听到都给我气到~~~~死了！ 哈哈！
选择这行。。有我的理由。。

还没适应目前的生活。。
有工作的生活。。
见到人要说多话的生活。。（人际关系）
曾经学过的东西，要再重新学习的生活。。
单身的生活。。

目前的工作还应付得来。。
还需要加倍努力！！
最难是应付顾客。。
我不会和他们说话。。=.='''
不知该说些什么好！！

对这行没什么兴趣的我。。
应该可以做到吧?
我可以在这行生存吧？

sad song.. the call

It started out as a feeling Which then grew into a hope Which then turned into a quiet thought Which then turned into a quiet word And then that word grew louder and louder 'Til it was a battle cry I'll come back When you call me No need to say goodbye Just because everything's changing Doesn't mean it's never been this way before All you can do is try to know who your friends are As you head off to the war Pick a star on the dark horizon And follow the light You'll come back when it's over No need to say goodbye You'll come back when it's over No need to say goodbye Now we're back to the beginning It's just a feeling and no one knows yet But just because they can't feel it too Doesn't mean that you have to forget Let your memories grow stronger and stronger 'Til they're before your eyes You'll cone back When they call you No need to say goodbye You'll come back When they call you No need to say goodbye

my long hair look..

miss my long hair look..
lots of sweet mmry with tat look..
joy, happiness, playful, pity, LIAR look!!
i hate to look bck those long hair style pic..!!
but i miss those moment..

i'm stil looking backwards...
sigh....
when wil tis end?
im trying not to do so..
but.. hard...

everytime its hurt when think back..
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!!!!!
WAKE UP!!!!!

my title on ebuddy... those days...

stupid line.... =.='''
yesterday and today,
cant on msn..
suddenly think bout ebuddy,
tat could surf msn too..
surf on ebuddy..
heart broken.............

the title..
reminds me on d last time i surf on ebuddy..
d moment,
hard time for him..
d moment tat he need me so..
d moment tat i wish i could go everywhr wit him..
miss those days..

regret i dint giv d best for him..
dint treat him good..
dint take good care of him..
dint b thr when he need me..

i should learn more..
i should change..
i should keep dis feeling..
i should do wat is rite..
i should wake up!!!!

sorry doesnt mean anymore..........

我离开我自己.....

因为明天还剩一寸记忆 泪水染红眼睛 所有的过往还灿烂无比 却不可及 对世间的离别深信不疑 因此才会相依 没等看见年华流失散尽 就变灰烬 你问我发生了什么 无光的夜不动声色 心似淬火不能触摸 温柔无因果 用天真换一根烟的光阴 我离开我自己 像倦鸟归去留下的空寂 安安静静 一霎风雨我爱过你 几度雨停我爱自己 如何结束一身冷清 梦来了又去

rockxxxx sunday!

yesterday went to DTD music festival~
dis is d 1st time i attend to a music festival like dis..
indie music.. i'm starting to loving it~!
all those music u wil not like it when u listen frm cd or radio..
but when it come yo live..............
DAMN AWESOME!!!!!

especially indie rock!
its start wit drum..
follow by bass..
electric guitar..
d rocker voice!!!
perfect match!!!
u can c everyone's head banging!!
i love flirting with sleep!!

indie electro..
d sound.. all mixed up together..
it become a master piece!!
nice~!!
everyone sitting on d floor and enjoy d music..
u can feel d bass strongly..

acoustic guitar performed by ika..
sweet voice she has!
fell in love wit her voice..
meaningful lyrics.. nice rhythm..
sweet+ sad+ enjoy
with the guitar..
my heart swinging~ swinging~
flowing~ dreaming~
dun hope tis moment to stop~




















become model wit jez~
its quite funny and shy!
its my 1st time doin catwalk~
get to meet frens frm facebook tat neva meet b4..
they r funny!! they r cool too~
its fun to join a group of ppl who love music!
dis is 1st time hang out wit her~
its fun.. had a great time~ ^^

took dinner wit jez and her frens..
after dinner went bck to d hall..
bought flirting with sleep cd~
and deng deng etc cd~
and a shirt.. love them!!!
after bought those stuff
its time to go back le..
to a quite place..
a place whr i belong..
a place tat no happening music festival like tis..

really enjoy~^^

d entry cop..

a song tat can make feel better~

shawn mullins- lullaby

she grew up with
the children of the stars
in the hollywood hills and the boulevard
her parents threw big parties
everyone was there
they hung out with folks like
dennis hopper, bob seger, sonny and cher

now, she feels safe
in this bar on fairfax
and from the stage I can tell that
she can't let go and she can't relax
and just before
she hangs her head to cry
I sing to her a lullaby, I sing

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
rockabye

she still lives with her mom
outside the city
down that street about a half a mile
and all her friends tell her
she's so pretty
but she'd be a whole lot prettier
if she smiled once in a while
`cause even her smile
looks like a frown
she's seen her share of devils
in this angel town

But, everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
rockabye

I told her I ain't so sure
about this place
it's hard to play a gig in this town
and keep a straight face
seems like everyone here's got a plan
it's kind of like nashville with a tan, but,

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye

hard time..............

today went to interview..
a beauty boutique saloon..
d place is quite nice..
their uniform...
cute.. XP

the company need contract..
its about 1-2years..
haiz.... 2 year too long liao..
1 year ok de.. stil can take it..
if 1 year.. i'l stay in dis industry..
if nothing change..
i'l go..

in dis 1-2 year..
hope things wil change..
including myself..
in dis hard time..
i cant be free anymore!
i dun wanna kill myself wil all the stupid thinking!
i wanna be busy..
forget all those stupid thinking!
rebuilt my own character!

stil..
im hoping a better answer..
if its not d asnwer tat i expect..
i'l b gone..
to a new place...
i'l find a small place to hide myself..
sing sad love song in d middle of the nite..
and mr. lonely always wit me...

dis is wat i plan for dis hard time...
i must work hard!

++nightmare++

get some sleep jz now.. jz awhile...!!
stupid nightmare!!! u wake me up!!
jz show something sweet pls!!!!
i dun wanna hav bad dream at this moment, this hard moment!

i really hope dis dream not goin to b true!!!
no!! pls no!!!
its real like hell!! i am a psycho in d dream!!
i kick everything, hit the wall, cut my own hand!
its jz in dream.. wat if it happen in real life??
cant imagine wat wil i do.. mayb worst..

everything bout them.. its haunted me!!!
sweet, lovely, adorable, close..
FUCK!!!!
i dun wanna listen any of them!
i dun even wanna hear frm d person who close to u!!!
jz face me and tel me the truth!
jz kill me wit ur true feeling and wat's really happened!
jz let me die on ur truth!!
i dun wanna die on ur lies!!

i knw it gonna hurt for real..
but i knw the revenge..
i knw how..

huuh~
back to reality..
its time to do something else..

去年的今天，车坏了。。

他刚走了。。 我睡不着。。
残了！！又开始胡思乱想！！

每次都会想，去年的今天，
我在做些什么？
情况如何？
那时候的我开心吗？

印象中，去年今天的我是不开心的！
因为不明不白的结束了一段恋情。
那时候没那么痛。
只是很想念他。
虽然分手了，那时候的我们还有联络。
还有说有笑的，
一点恨他的感觉都没有。

直到有一天，半夜我驾车送朋友回家的途中，
我的车坏了。那时的我很慌张，不知道怎样好。
脑袋一片空白！拿起电话只想到打给他。
只是想到要和他说。有好笑咯~ 就是没想到，
他在那么远，这么帮我啊！
有笨啦~! >.<
到最后找到人帮忙了。

事后，回到家就大哭！
因为没遇过这样的事情。吓到自己。
那时候的他安慰我。对我来说已经很开心很足够了~！
过几天，我们复合了！

想到回来了！
如果现在我又再遇同样的情况，
他还会象之前那样对我吗？
还会像之前那么关心我吗？
还有机会复合吗？
很想知道！
很怀念过去！
很想看到未来~

the 1st....

this is the 1st time for me..
this is my 1st blog here..
i'm trying get use to it..
and this is d 1st time,
i got nothing to say.. >.<

-the end-