be glad~ i've been wit u before~^^

its been long time never chat wit K,
secondary schoolmate of mine..
saw her somewhr shopping complex..
and now we are always keep in touch wit each other..

we used to chat for hours in phone those time..
but now its abit shy and distance wit her..
recently need help frm her..
and she keep talking bout d past..
actually i dun feel wan to chat to her..
but..
she 'save' me and my domo-kun!!!
i should thank her!

today went to her need some help..
while waiting,
we chat bout event on last few days..
my ex was thr..
he dint chat wit me..
not even say hi to me..
i tot he dun recognize me..kekeke
cz i change alot since secondary school!

tat nite,
me and my baby leave early,
K told me they all talk bout d past..
she told me tat my ex cant forget bout me after we broke up for long time..
he said im d best gf he ever meet..

haiz... dis is not d 1st time i heard..
mostly every ex also say d same thing..
i not mad of it,
dun even feel happy for it,
jz nothing..
peacefully..
bcz,
if tat time i was a good gf,
they wont leave me jz like tat..
but in d end they beg for reunion..
ans says tat im d best gf they ever meet..
everyone of them is the same.. =.='''

think back everyone of them.. every cases..
ask for a last last last chance..
but i refused..
and think bout wat happened recently,
i ask for a last last last chance..
i get it..
i should b thankful..
bcz i knw im like everyone of them..
im not perfect..
im not good enough..
i did bad things..
im sturborn..
but now we are together~

for all those ex'sss.....:
u guys should be glad,
cz we loved each other before,
knwing each other before,
live wit each other before,
all the best to u all in ur love life~
forget everything about me~!
be good to ur girl~
take care~ peace~

and now me and my baby,
i wont leave him anymore~!
when it comes to a question,
how much do you love him?
the answer is..

i Love HiM more THAN i LOVe MySelf!!^^

afraid of wat??

when thr is no chance,
i hope i can get the chance..
when thr is a chance,
i afraid to giv a try..
sigh...........

live for wat???

那四个月。。

睡不着，很无聊。。
看看电脑里有什么旧歌。。
听听下，
听到那时候常听的歌。。
陪着我度过那四个月的歌。。

那些歌，是从一位网友(R)那里下载回来的。。
听回哪些歌，很多感触。。
伤心，失去自我，没有自信，内疚，生气，
和自己作对，躲来躲去，做自己不喜欢的事，
情绪很差，就快疯了！！

现在好很多了。。
一切回到原点。。
很感谢，网友们的陪伴(P,C,A,J,R,T)还有很多！
不是你们的话，我早就疯掉，跳楼死了！

接下来的每一刻，我会珍惜。。。

sweet song~ melting..

heard a sweet song frm jez~
nice one~!
sweet lyrics...
but feel abit creepy too~

Cocorosie- By Your Side

I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out

I just wanted to be your housewife
All i wanted was to be your housewife

I'll iron your clothes
I'll shine your shoes
I'll make your bed
And cook your food
I'll never cheat
I'll be the best girl you'll ever meet
And for a diamond ring
I'll do these kinds of things
I'll scrub your floor
Never be a bore
I'll tuck you in
I do not snore
I'd wear your black eyes
Bake you apple pies
I won't ask why
And i try not to pry

I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out

And its nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to be your housewife
Is to be your housewife

'Cause it's nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to die your housewife
Is to die your housewife

u bloody non-educated fucker!!!!

TSF, a fren of mine..
we used to hang together..
we used to b close frens..
but not now..

she likes to b fake~
she loves to show off..
but there's nothing for her to show..
bcz in d end she wil ask me, y like tis? y like tat?

every word out frm her mouth...
she neva think before say it out.
she said she accidentally spoke out...
wwwwaaaaaaaaa............................

i was very angry...
i already knew she wil talk bad and critic..
but i stil get hurt..
those things she said really hurt deep down of my heart!!!!!
i cried and think y she treat me like tat?
izit im the one wit alot of problem?
am i annoying?
am i disgusting?
y she hate me so much?

in the end,
i tel myself..

y should i care bout her?
y should i bother?
she is the one who make problems!
she is d one who are no brain at all!!!

ok~ok~..........................
just bcz she is non-educated~
i should forgiv her~
my knowledge are more than her~
i should b proud of myself~
bcz im not like her~!!!
im much more better than her~!!!!

YOU WON'T KNOCK ME DOWN ANYMORE!!!!!

讨厌寂寞，喜欢安静~

和朋友喝茶，
什么都聊。。
只有她最了解我~
聊到最近很气的事！

最近讨厌和家人出去吃饭。。
要等一个个去冲凉，
要问大家的意见，
大家的意见都不一样！
一直兜风想去那里吃~

在车里，
他们聊的话题，
都在说别人的事，
每个都耳聋，
说话又大声！
一直讲我，叫我不要这样那样！
人家都没有这样！还讲到人家一定会这样！！
很吵！！
烦啊！！！

我不是不想和他们吃饭，
我不是不爱他们，
我只是想要安静。。
他们根本不了解不明白。。

就算是没节目，没出去都好。。
我也不想和他们出去吃饭。。
只想待在家。。
静静的，
听音乐，
放松，
休息，
回想和肥猪一起开心的时候，
然后睡着。。

这么简单。。
度过每一晚。。

just wan to b close to u~^^

i like her..
not because of she is related to who or who..
just because she is who she is~

i try to be close to her..
but i shy..
dun even knw how to start a topic..
usually i wil start with my 'professional' advice..
................LAME!!!!!
its jz an idea try to talk to her..

i like her,
she is unique~
she is cute~
she is who she is~
she doesn't fake~
she's not try to become somebosy else~
she got her own way~
she got her own opinion~
she got her own taste~
she is nice~
she is not show off~
and..............
ALOT~~~~!!!

i hope we can be closer~
can share stories, secret, experience together~
but................... long way to go~^^
haiz.............

p/s to her:

hope everything she do wil b smooth~
stay cute~
i wil always support her~!


u guys sure think tat im les...
hahahaha~!!




hope tat she wont find out tat i write bout her~ XP

leave me alone!!!!

its hard to get a peaceful rest day..
its hard to enjoy my off day..
i need it peacefully!!
pls leave me alone!!!!

back to the begining~

glad to hav u again~
wont do d same mistakes again~
dun wan to lose u anymore~
wil cherish all the moment we hav~

wanna hug u and fall asleep~!
wanna kiss u in morning~!
u piiiiiggggggggg~!♥

老了。。

累了。。
承受不住了。。
终于明白他说的累。。
他应该比我累很多吧.?

我想我可以不介意的。。
听他给的答案。。
我真的承受不了了！
没有力气再后着脸皮。。

老了。。
没力再犯错。。
教训过了。。
反醒过了。。
没有办法了。。
手放开他会比较快乐吧。。？

我这样的条件。。
不是很好。。
还有很多条件很好的女生。。
我也不算是什么吧。。
只好把感受放在心理。。

~~~~~mr. j，

谢谢你~！我们一起加油~！^^

分裂

一個我像不會累一直往前
一個我動彈不得傷心欲絕
我不確定 幾個我 住在心裡面
偶爾像敵人 偶爾像姐妹

一個我在網路上朋友一堆
一個我在房間裡獨自面對
灰色的音樂 塞滿黑夜 High的像麻醉
好讓翻攪的胃 安靜一點 忘了全世界

分裂前的熱淚 分裂後的冷眼
越愛誰 越防備 像隻脆弱的刺蝟
分裂中的心碎 分裂後的假面
不快樂 不傷悲 情緒埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂

一個我相信用心會被感覺
一個我大喊真心會被欺騙
開始的熱烈 不停奉獻 後來剩決裂
謊言吞噬了心 帶來刺痛 撕裂的蛻變

分裂前的熱淚 分裂後的冷眼
越愛誰 越防備 像隻脆弱的刺蝟
分裂中的心碎 分裂後的假面
不快樂 不傷悲 情緒埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂

不再兰着脸要你可怜了！

to be continue~~

keep silent..

tired...
tired of explain..
explain when ppl dun bliv u..
u choose to tell all over again or keep quite?
i choose to keep silent..

eventho i explain..
ppl wont understand and wont bliv..
jz let them think wat they wanna think bout me!!!
im dun hav d strength to worry bout wat u ppl think bout me..
i cant even take good care of myself!!!

wat u all wanna judge bout me jz do so..
i am wat i am..
i am who i am..
and u all are wrong!!

wat i've heard frm u all~
my respond is..

WHaTeVeR~~~~

-New Divide-

I remember black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
and your voice was all I heard, that I get what I deserve


There was nothing insight, the memory's left abandoned
There was no where to hide, the ashes fell like snow
and the ground caved in between where we were standing
and your voice was all I heard, that I get what I deserve


In every loss, in every lie,
In every truth that you deny,
and each regret and each goodbye were some mistakes you pray to hide
and your voice was all I heard, that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies, across this new divide

Across this new divide
Across this new divide

try

All I know is everything is not as it's sold
But the more I grow the less I know

And I have lived so many lives though I'm not old
And the more I see the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all

The more I learn the more I learn
The more I cry the more I cry 
As I say goodbye to the way of life I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try 

Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be but all I can do is try

All of the moments that already passed
(Already passed) 
We'll try to go back and make them last
(Make them last) 
All of the things we want each other to be 
(Each other to be)
We never will be 

And that's wonderful
And that's life
And that's you baby
This is me baby
And we are
We are

We are free in our love

Try

people..................

mayb im not cute..
not interesting like them..
mayb im a boring fren..
cant entertain..
mayb im annoying..

i just like a fren like u...
u r special..
but too bad..
mayb some misunderstanding..
or i am d misunderstanding..
or i think too much???

mayb u jz wan a hello-goodbye fren..
or i too serious on everything..
or i jz too lonely...

mayb~~~~~

不是我。。

女生，
要装可爱才会讨人喜欢的吗？
女生，
要装无知才会有被别人受保护吗？

那些‘装’的人，
不辛苦吗？
被人喜欢的感觉很好吧？
被受欢迎的感觉很喜欢吧？
被受保护的感觉很爽吧？
带着面具过日子不累吗？
面具被拆破会很惨吧？

你们总是幸运的。。
你们太‘可爱’了！
没人舍得恨你们。。
你们，
厉害~ 赞~够假！

see a litte light~

Stay alone in my room
every moment passing too slow
watch the candles burn into the night.

Fall into a dream wake up
and everything the same
a second older but alone
just like a child.

If you just give me a sign
to live and not to die
then I can see a little light
I could find some piece of mine
I don't know where you are
maybe near or maybe far
I just need a little light.

Hear a clock ticking
on a light that could have meaning
if I could find the love like in your eyes
see a million people everyone so lonely
but we don't have to be alone tonight.


If I could see a little light
if I could find some piece of mine
if you just give me a sign
I could see a little light
I don't know where you are
maybe near or maybe far
I could see a little light
if I could see a little light
if I could see a little light.

Stay alone in my room
every moment passing too slow
watch the candles burn into the night.

realize

tonite.. alone again~
no kaki lepak wit me..
no money.. *sigh*
no petrol.. cham~ T.T

hate d feeling being alone..
d past appears again again and again~
everythings happen for a reason..
and things turning backward but goin forward..

at last we realize we should stop..
go on our life..
we should do wat is rite..
we should not make d same mistakes again..
final deal~

feel lonely again~~~~
everything is cold~~~~

shitty day..

I hate myself today.
I don't know what's happening to me.
I hate my face today.
I think I look so shitty.

I have some spot everywhere.
And I'm not even shaved.
My hair all greasy.
I look disgusting.

My eyes are glued.
My lips are chapped.
My legs are prickling.
And plus I'm stinky today.

How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know yoú're gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cause you want a perfect girl,
And I'm not what you expect.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Maybe I should put some makeup,
And find some crazy outfits.
But I am very tired today
And I don't care if I'm not pretty.

Should be like these girls,
Skinny and great all the time.
I'm still wearing my slippers
And eat all the candies at home.

I should sleep more,
And stop going out everyday.
I should focus more,
And stop complaining today.

Tell me, How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cause you want a perfect girl,
And I'm not so perfect.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Tell me, how can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me,
And I'm gonna cry.

its about me and you~

有些话，不说出口，并不意味着不能了解。

有些人，不见，并不等于两两相忘.

如果有一件事是重要的。。

你想要不变心的情人
还是永远不老的青春
你想要更伟大更不朽
还是一个瞬间成永恒

你在期待命好使人废
还是坚持厄运不服输
回忆再珍贵都有极限
未来多完美并未可知

你想先得到一个祝福
还是先给予一个感谢
美丽再完美都有极限
思想多珍贵并未可知

what if what if
谁都是自己问题的答案
what if what if
谁都是自己答案的问题
谁都有一辈子 好好想清楚

如果有一件事 是重要的
那就是 对与错的总合

i wanna become RocKer!!

love rock music!!
when im listening..
makes me forget everything..
forget how i feel..
forget wat i supposed to feel..
forget all those emo..

enjoy bang-ing head..
volume goin up..
love d noise!
rock music is my DruG!!!

i wanna RoCK!!!

smile and let it pass..

things tat i go thru..
it happen again but different backwards..
really cant bliv it when carmen told..

such as..
i waited someone who's went to ns..
now d fella waiting is gf who's inside ns..

i hav been treated someone bad when i got my love life..
now im single im sad, and being treat bad..

somebody care bout me, but i blew away..
now.. wont care anymore..

now i understand..
everything i did wil get payback or wil happen again but in different way..

the things i lost..
im kinda regret for losing it..
at the same time i feel so empty..

feel so lonely..
things change..
this is payback to me..
for wat i've done..

i hav to go on..
accept and absord..
learn..
to become stronger..

i cant smile happily like b4..
thr's nothing i can b cheer up wit..
force myself to smile..

smile and c wat had happen..
smile and let things happen..
smile and thinking all those bad mmries..
smile on d mirror c how fake, silly i am..

*im wit fake smile eveyday~*

fighting til d last minute!!!

they remind bout how lucky i am..
i dint realize..
everything i had jz not enough..
everything i go thru for me its hard..
but i heard their stories..
im lucky~

get too much..
giv less..
expect too much..
sacrifice less..

hope too much..
disappoint too much..
scare too much..
think too much..

negative too much..
positive less..
confident less..
complain too much..

lots of bad things~ =.='''
really need to change!!!!

厚脸皮渐渐的变薄了。。

受不了刺激。。
受不了被拒绝。。
受不了被排撤。。
受不了打击。。
受不了孤单。。
受不了寂寞。。
受不了自己一个人的时候。。
受不了自己!!!

越来越怀疑自己。。
越来越没自信。。
越来越忧郁。。
越来越不懂。。
越来越不想懂！！

很想开心得痛快。。
很想伤心得痛快。。
挟在中间。。
永远是最痛苦！！

原谅不了，
愚蠢的自己。

hate my long hair look!!!

cant look to d old pics..
i hate it so much!!!
my long hair look!!!
thinking bck all those mmry~
i'm d big idiot!!!!!

hate myself!!!
d uglier d better!!

sorry.. i'm a liar..

nothing can change d past..
everything goin forward..
realize..
everything is different..
new life..
single life..
everythings change..
except my heart..
im stil a liar to him..

its hard to get bck d trust..
mayb wont come bck?
i dont knw...
everything i did..
only me myself and i knw wat im doin..

i get ready for everything..
good or bad..
its fate..

i hope he can giv me big slap on my face..
scold me..
better than hurting him..

im so sorry..
i stil love u so much..















lonely~
waiting for owner...

building a mystery

You come out at night
That's when the energy comes
And the dark side's light
And the vampires roam
You strut your rasta wear
And your suicide poem
And a cross from a faith that died
Before Jesus came

You live in a church
Where you sleep with voodoo dolls
And you won't give up the search
For the ghosts in the halls
You wear sandals in the snow
And a smile that won't wash away
Can you look out the window
Without your shadow getting in the way?

You're so beautiful
With an edge and charm
but so careful
When I'm in your arms

You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know it all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening's thin

You're a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You're setting up your
Razor wire shrine

Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully

You're building a mystery

唱歌的我是最开心的~^^

最近很情绪化，
不开心，
很忧郁，
有想到要自杀的念头！！
虽然时间不够，
可是一有休息的时间，
我自己一个人，
崩溃了！
不可以了！
要让自己恨忙很忙很忙了！
一直上网找东找西，
看东看西。。

想起meetoto..
很久没玩了。。
就上去玩玩~

排队等着。。
紧张到~~~~
虽然只是玩玩，
不是参加比赛，
没人知道我是谁，
看不到我的样子，
。。。。。。都是会紧张啊！=.=''' cant help it~

轮到我上台了！
拿起mic..
开始昌了。。
还是会紧张..
觉得很开心。。
很爽！
找到自信。。
虽然昌的不是很好。。
可以让忧郁症暂时离开。。
很好！！！

唱完了。。
感觉很好！！
看到他们给的vote,
很开心！！
不是很多，
有人vote就已经很好了！

yeah~!^^

我。。应该可以的吧。。？

还没开始做工之前，
很犹豫，
不知道自己的兴趣在那里，
因为。。
自己的选择只有。。
美甲师，美容师，空姐。。

当初最不想做的是美容这一行。。
结果，
我已经是个美容师了。。
身边的朋友听到都给我气到~~~~死了！ 哈哈！
选择这行。。有我的理由。。

还没适应目前的生活。。
有工作的生活。。
见到人要说多话的生活。。（人际关系）
曾经学过的东西，要再重新学习的生活。。
单身的生活。。

目前的工作还应付得来。。
还需要加倍努力！！
最难是应付顾客。。
我不会和他们说话。。=.='''
不知该说些什么好！！

对这行没什么兴趣的我。。
应该可以做到吧?
我可以在这行生存吧？

sad song.. the call

It started out as a feeling Which then grew into a hope Which then turned into a quiet thought Which then turned into a quiet word And then that word grew louder and louder 'Til it was a battle cry I'll come back When you call me No need to say goodbye Just because everything's changing Doesn't mean it's never been this way before All you can do is try to know who your friends are As you head off to the war Pick a star on the dark horizon And follow the light You'll come back when it's over No need to say goodbye You'll come back when it's over No need to say goodbye Now we're back to the beginning It's just a feeling and no one knows yet But just because they can't feel it too Doesn't mean that you have to forget Let your memories grow stronger and stronger 'Til they're before your eyes You'll cone back When they call you No need to say goodbye You'll come back When they call you No need to say goodbye

my long hair look..

miss my long hair look..
lots of sweet mmry with tat look..
joy, happiness, playful, pity, LIAR look!!
i hate to look bck those long hair style pic..!!
but i miss those moment..

i'm stil looking backwards...
sigh....
when wil tis end?
im trying not to do so..
but.. hard...

everytime its hurt when think back..
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!!!!!
WAKE UP!!!!!

my title on ebuddy... those days...

stupid line.... =.='''
yesterday and today,
cant on msn..
suddenly think bout ebuddy,
tat could surf msn too..
surf on ebuddy..
heart broken.............

the title..
reminds me on d last time i surf on ebuddy..
d moment,
hard time for him..
d moment tat he need me so..
d moment tat i wish i could go everywhr wit him..
miss those days..

regret i dint giv d best for him..
dint treat him good..
dint take good care of him..
dint b thr when he need me..

i should learn more..
i should change..
i should keep dis feeling..
i should do wat is rite..
i should wake up!!!!

sorry doesnt mean anymore..........

我离开我自己.....

因为明天还剩一寸记忆 泪水染红眼睛 所有的过往还灿烂无比 却不可及 对世间的离别深信不疑 因此才会相依 没等看见年华流失散尽 就变灰烬 你问我发生了什么 无光的夜不动声色 心似淬火不能触摸 温柔无因果 用天真换一根烟的光阴 我离开我自己 像倦鸟归去留下的空寂 安安静静 一霎风雨我爱过你 几度雨停我爱自己 如何结束一身冷清 梦来了又去

rockxxxx sunday!

yesterday went to DTD music festival~
dis is d 1st time i attend to a music festival like dis..
indie music.. i'm starting to loving it~!
all those music u wil not like it when u listen frm cd or radio..
but when it come yo live..............
DAMN AWESOME!!!!!

especially indie rock!
its start wit drum..
follow by bass..
electric guitar..
d rocker voice!!!
perfect match!!!
u can c everyone's head banging!!
i love flirting with sleep!!

indie electro..
d sound.. all mixed up together..
it become a master piece!!
nice~!!
everyone sitting on d floor and enjoy d music..
u can feel d bass strongly..

acoustic guitar performed by ika..
sweet voice she has!
fell in love wit her voice..
meaningful lyrics.. nice rhythm..
sweet+ sad+ enjoy
with the guitar..
my heart swinging~ swinging~
flowing~ dreaming~
dun hope tis moment to stop~




















become model wit jez~
its quite funny and shy!
its my 1st time doin catwalk~
get to meet frens frm facebook tat neva meet b4..
they r funny!! they r cool too~
its fun to join a group of ppl who love music!
dis is 1st time hang out wit her~
its fun.. had a great time~ ^^

took dinner wit jez and her frens..
after dinner went bck to d hall..
bought flirting with sleep cd~
and deng deng etc cd~
and a shirt.. love them!!!
after bought those stuff
its time to go back le..
to a quite place..
a place whr i belong..
a place tat no happening music festival like tis..

really enjoy~^^

d entry cop..

a song tat can make feel better~

shawn mullins- lullaby

she grew up with
the children of the stars
in the hollywood hills and the boulevard
her parents threw big parties
everyone was there
they hung out with folks like
dennis hopper, bob seger, sonny and cher

now, she feels safe
in this bar on fairfax
and from the stage I can tell that
she can't let go and she can't relax
and just before
she hangs her head to cry
I sing to her a lullaby, I sing

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
rockabye

she still lives with her mom
outside the city
down that street about a half a mile
and all her friends tell her
she's so pretty
but she'd be a whole lot prettier
if she smiled once in a while
`cause even her smile
looks like a frown
she's seen her share of devils
in this angel town

But, everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
rockabye

I told her I ain't so sure
about this place
it's hard to play a gig in this town
and keep a straight face
seems like everyone here's got a plan
it's kind of like nashville with a tan, but,

everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye
everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye

hard time..............

today went to interview..
a beauty boutique saloon..
d place is quite nice..
their uniform...
cute.. XP

the company need contract..
its about 1-2years..
haiz.... 2 year too long liao..
1 year ok de.. stil can take it..
if 1 year.. i'l stay in dis industry..
if nothing change..
i'l go..

in dis 1-2 year..
hope things wil change..
including myself..
in dis hard time..
i cant be free anymore!
i dun wanna kill myself wil all the stupid thinking!
i wanna be busy..
forget all those stupid thinking!
rebuilt my own character!

stil..
im hoping a better answer..
if its not d asnwer tat i expect..
i'l b gone..
to a new place...
i'l find a small place to hide myself..
sing sad love song in d middle of the nite..
and mr. lonely always wit me...

dis is wat i plan for dis hard time...
i must work hard!

++nightmare++

get some sleep jz now.. jz awhile...!!
stupid nightmare!!! u wake me up!!
jz show something sweet pls!!!!
i dun wanna hav bad dream at this moment, this hard moment!

i really hope dis dream not goin to b true!!!
no!! pls no!!!
its real like hell!! i am a psycho in d dream!!
i kick everything, hit the wall, cut my own hand!
its jz in dream.. wat if it happen in real life??
cant imagine wat wil i do.. mayb worst..

everything bout them.. its haunted me!!!
sweet, lovely, adorable, close..
FUCK!!!!
i dun wanna listen any of them!
i dun even wanna hear frm d person who close to u!!!
jz face me and tel me the truth!
jz kill me wit ur true feeling and wat's really happened!
jz let me die on ur truth!!
i dun wanna die on ur lies!!

i knw it gonna hurt for real..
but i knw the revenge..
i knw how..

huuh~
back to reality..
its time to do something else..

去年的今天，车坏了。。

他刚走了。。 我睡不着。。
残了！！又开始胡思乱想！！

每次都会想，去年的今天，
我在做些什么？
情况如何？
那时候的我开心吗？

印象中，去年今天的我是不开心的！
因为不明不白的结束了一段恋情。
那时候没那么痛。
只是很想念他。
虽然分手了，那时候的我们还有联络。
还有说有笑的，
一点恨他的感觉都没有。

直到有一天，半夜我驾车送朋友回家的途中，
我的车坏了。那时的我很慌张，不知道怎样好。
脑袋一片空白！拿起电话只想到打给他。
只是想到要和他说。有好笑咯~ 就是没想到，
他在那么远，这么帮我啊！
有笨啦~! >.<
到最后找到人帮忙了。

事后，回到家就大哭！
因为没遇过这样的事情。吓到自己。
那时候的他安慰我。对我来说已经很开心很足够了~！
过几天，我们复合了！

想到回来了！
如果现在我又再遇同样的情况，
他还会象之前那样对我吗？
还会像之前那么关心我吗？
还有机会复合吗？
很想知道！
很怀念过去！
很想看到未来~

the 1st....

this is the 1st time for me..
this is my 1st blog here..
i'm trying get use to it..
and this is d 1st time,
i got nothing to say.. >.<

-the end-