realize

tonite.. alone again~
no kaki lepak wit me..
no money.. *sigh*
no petrol.. cham~ T.T

hate d feeling being alone..
d past appears again again and again~
everythings happen for a reason..
and things turning backward but goin forward..

at last we realize we should stop..
go on our life..
we should do wat is rite..
we should not make d same mistakes again..
final deal~

feel lonely again~~~~
everything is cold~~~~

shitty day..

I hate myself today.
I don't know what's happening to me.
I hate my face today.
I think I look so shitty.

I have some spot everywhere.
And I'm not even shaved.
My hair all greasy.
I look disgusting.

My eyes are glued.
My lips are chapped.
My legs are prickling.
And plus I'm stinky today.

How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know yoú're gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cause you want a perfect girl,
And I'm not what you expect.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Maybe I should put some makeup,
And find some crazy outfits.
But I am very tired today
And I don't care if I'm not pretty.

Should be like these girls,
Skinny and great all the time.
I'm still wearing my slippers
And eat all the candies at home.

I should sleep more,
And stop going out everyday.
I should focus more,
And stop complaining today.

Tell me, How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cause you want a perfect girl,
And I'm not so perfect.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Tell me, how can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me,
And I'm gonna cry.

its about me and you~

有些话，不说出口，并不意味着不能了解。

有些人，不见，并不等于两两相忘.

如果有一件事是重要的。。

你想要不变心的情人
还是永远不老的青春
你想要更伟大更不朽
还是一个瞬间成永恒

你在期待命好使人废
还是坚持厄运不服输
回忆再珍贵都有极限
未来多完美并未可知

你想先得到一个祝福
还是先给予一个感谢
美丽再完美都有极限
思想多珍贵并未可知

what if what if
谁都是自己问题的答案
what if what if
谁都是自己答案的问题
谁都有一辈子 好好想清楚

如果有一件事 是重要的
那就是 对与错的总合

i wanna become RocKer!!

love rock music!!
when im listening..
makes me forget everything..
forget how i feel..
forget wat i supposed to feel..
forget all those emo..

enjoy bang-ing head..
volume goin up..
love d noise!
rock music is my DruG!!!

i wanna RoCK!!!

smile and let it pass..

things tat i go thru..
it happen again but different backwards..
really cant bliv it when carmen told..

such as..
i waited someone who's went to ns..
now d fella waiting is gf who's inside ns..

i hav been treated someone bad when i got my love life..
now im single im sad, and being treat bad..

somebody care bout me, but i blew away..
now.. wont care anymore..

now i understand..
everything i did wil get payback or wil happen again but in different way..

the things i lost..
im kinda regret for losing it..
at the same time i feel so empty..

feel so lonely..
things change..
this is payback to me..
for wat i've done..

i hav to go on..
accept and absord..
learn..
to become stronger..

i cant smile happily like b4..
thr's nothing i can b cheer up wit..
force myself to smile..

smile and c wat had happen..
smile and let things happen..
smile and thinking all those bad mmries..
smile on d mirror c how fake, silly i am..

*im wit fake smile eveyday~*

fighting til d last minute!!!

they remind bout how lucky i am..
i dint realize..
everything i had jz not enough..
everything i go thru for me its hard..
but i heard their stories..
im lucky~

get too much..
giv less..
expect too much..
sacrifice less..

hope too much..
disappoint too much..
scare too much..
think too much..

negative too much..
positive less..
confident less..
complain too much..

lots of bad things~ =.='''
really need to change!!!!

厚脸皮渐渐的变薄了。。

受不了刺激。。
受不了被拒绝。。
受不了被排撤。。
受不了打击。。
受不了孤单。。
受不了寂寞。。
受不了自己一个人的时候。。
受不了自己!!!

越来越怀疑自己。。
越来越没自信。。
越来越忧郁。。
越来越不懂。。
越来越不想懂！！

很想开心得痛快。。
很想伤心得痛快。。
挟在中间。。
永远是最痛苦！！

原谅不了，
愚蠢的自己。

hate my long hair look!!!

cant look to d old pics..
i hate it so much!!!
my long hair look!!!
thinking bck all those mmry~
i'm d big idiot!!!!!

hate myself!!!
d uglier d better!!

sorry.. i'm a liar..

nothing can change d past..
everything goin forward..
realize..
everything is different..
new life..
single life..
everythings change..
except my heart..
im stil a liar to him..

its hard to get bck d trust..
mayb wont come bck?
i dont knw...
everything i did..
only me myself and i knw wat im doin..

i get ready for everything..
good or bad..
its fate..

i hope he can giv me big slap on my face..
scold me..
better than hurting him..

im so sorry..
i stil love u so much..















lonely~
waiting for owner...

building a mystery

You come out at night
That's when the energy comes
And the dark side's light
And the vampires roam
You strut your rasta wear
And your suicide poem
And a cross from a faith that died
Before Jesus came

You live in a church
Where you sleep with voodoo dolls
And you won't give up the search
For the ghosts in the halls
You wear sandals in the snow
And a smile that won't wash away
Can you look out the window
Without your shadow getting in the way?

You're so beautiful
With an edge and charm
but so careful
When I'm in your arms

You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know it all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening's thin

You're a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You're setting up your
Razor wire shrine

Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully

You're building a mystery

唱歌的我是最开心的~^^

最近很情绪化，
不开心，
很忧郁，
有想到要自杀的念头！！
虽然时间不够，
可是一有休息的时间，
我自己一个人，
崩溃了！
不可以了！
要让自己恨忙很忙很忙了！
一直上网找东找西，
看东看西。。

想起meetoto..
很久没玩了。。
就上去玩玩~

排队等着。。
紧张到~~~~
虽然只是玩玩，
不是参加比赛，
没人知道我是谁，
看不到我的样子，
。。。。。。都是会紧张啊！=.=''' cant help it~

轮到我上台了！
拿起mic..
开始昌了。。
还是会紧张..
觉得很开心。。
很爽！
找到自信。。
虽然昌的不是很好。。
可以让忧郁症暂时离开。。
很好！！！

唱完了。。
感觉很好！！
看到他们给的vote,
很开心！！
不是很多，
有人vote就已经很好了！

yeah~!^^