1st day of 2010~

was unhappy on new year eve~
because..
jz alone..

dint hang out celebrate wit frens~
they went to pub..
i dun wan to go thr~
and also is because of somebody tat i hate is thr~

argue wit mr. j..
jz because of little matter..
blew up new year eve 'big' dinner~
i knw im not wat u had expected~
u should understand d situation~
haiz...
kek sim~~~~~~~

after peace wit mr. j,
he said,
lets go to melaka den~
tis is not in plan~
yoohoooo~~~!

1st of jan 2010,
morning breakfast wit family~
after tat go bck prepare,
den we move to melaka~~

weather was damn nice~~~
nice day to get tan~ XP

reached thr~
we dun knw any direction,
and reach jonker walk..
alot tourist..
mostly frm spore..

lots of shop selling things tat i like!
clothes, hats, chain, ring, etc.....
bought cowboy hat~ love it so much!!



weather damn hot!
damn thirsty!
forgot to bring my bottle~
we had nice ice kacang..



cure me frm hot~~

we dint eat much local cuisine,
cz alot ppl line up.. =='''
we jz tried satay celup..




erm..
i dun think is nice..
ok la~ jz an experience lo~~~~
next time should cal fang for direction!
altho dint try local cuisine,
its happy too..
cz stick wit mr. pig~ XP

be glad~ i've been wit u before~^^

its been long time never chat wit K,
secondary schoolmate of mine..
saw her somewhr shopping complex..
and now we are always keep in touch wit each other..

we used to chat for hours in phone those time..
but now its abit shy and distance wit her..
recently need help frm her..
and she keep talking bout d past..
actually i dun feel wan to chat to her..
but..
she 'save' me and my domo-kun!!!
i should thank her!

today went to her need some help..
while waiting,
we chat bout event on last few days..
my ex was thr..
he dint chat wit me..
not even say hi to me..
i tot he dun recognize me..kekeke
cz i change alot since secondary school!

tat nite,
me and my baby leave early,
K told me they all talk bout d past..
she told me tat my ex cant forget bout me after we broke up for long time..
he said im d best gf he ever meet..

haiz... dis is not d 1st time i heard..
mostly every ex also say d same thing..
i not mad of it,
dun even feel happy for it,
jz nothing..
peacefully..
bcz,
if tat time i was a good gf,
they wont leave me jz like tat..
but in d end they beg for reunion..
ans says tat im d best gf they ever meet..
everyone of them is the same.. =.='''

think back everyone of them.. every cases..
ask for a last last last chance..
but i refused..
and think bout wat happened recently,
i ask for a last last last chance..
i get it..
i should b thankful..
bcz i knw im like everyone of them..
im not perfect..
im not good enough..
i did bad things..
im sturborn..
but now we are together~

for all those ex'sss.....:
u guys should be glad,
cz we loved each other before,
knwing each other before,
live wit each other before,
all the best to u all in ur love life~
forget everything about me~!
be good to ur girl~
take care~ peace~

and now me and my baby,
i wont leave him anymore~!
when it comes to a question,
how much do you love him?
the answer is..

i Love HiM more THAN i LOVe MySelf!!^^

afraid of wat??

when thr is no chance,
i hope i can get the chance..
when thr is a chance,
i afraid to giv a try..
sigh...........

live for wat???

那四个月。。

睡不着，很无聊。。
看看电脑里有什么旧歌。。
听听下，
听到那时候常听的歌。。
陪着我度过那四个月的歌。。

那些歌，是从一位网友(R)那里下载回来的。。
听回哪些歌，很多感触。。
伤心，失去自我，没有自信，内疚，生气，
和自己作对，躲来躲去，做自己不喜欢的事，
情绪很差，就快疯了！！

现在好很多了。。
一切回到原点。。
很感谢，网友们的陪伴(P,C,A,J,R,T)还有很多！
不是你们的话，我早就疯掉，跳楼死了！

接下来的每一刻，我会珍惜。。。

sweet song~ melting..

heard a sweet song frm jez~
nice one~!
sweet lyrics...
but feel abit creepy too~

Cocorosie- By Your Side

I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out

I just wanted to be your housewife
All i wanted was to be your housewife

I'll iron your clothes
I'll shine your shoes
I'll make your bed
And cook your food
I'll never cheat
I'll be the best girl you'll ever meet
And for a diamond ring
I'll do these kinds of things
I'll scrub your floor
Never be a bore
I'll tuck you in
I do not snore
I'd wear your black eyes
Bake you apple pies
I won't ask why
And i try not to pry

I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out

And its nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to be your housewife
Is to be your housewife

'Cause it's nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to die your housewife
Is to die your housewife

u bloody non-educated fucker!!!!

TSF, a fren of mine..
we used to hang together..
we used to b close frens..
but not now..

she likes to b fake~
she loves to show off..
but there's nothing for her to show..
bcz in d end she wil ask me, y like tis? y like tat?

every word out frm her mouth...
she neva think before say it out.
she said she accidentally spoke out...
wwwwaaaaaaaaa............................

i was very angry...
i already knew she wil talk bad and critic..
but i stil get hurt..
those things she said really hurt deep down of my heart!!!!!
i cried and think y she treat me like tat?
izit im the one wit alot of problem?
am i annoying?
am i disgusting?
y she hate me so much?

in the end,
i tel myself..

y should i care bout her?
y should i bother?
she is the one who make problems!
she is d one who are no brain at all!!!

ok~ok~..........................
just bcz she is non-educated~
i should forgiv her~
my knowledge are more than her~
i should b proud of myself~
bcz im not like her~!!!
im much more better than her~!!!!

YOU WON'T KNOCK ME DOWN ANYMORE!!!!!

讨厌寂寞，喜欢安静~

和朋友喝茶，
什么都聊。。
只有她最了解我~
聊到最近很气的事！

最近讨厌和家人出去吃饭。。
要等一个个去冲凉，
要问大家的意见，
大家的意见都不一样！
一直兜风想去那里吃~

在车里，
他们聊的话题，
都在说别人的事，
每个都耳聋，
说话又大声！
一直讲我，叫我不要这样那样！
人家都没有这样！还讲到人家一定会这样！！
很吵！！
烦啊！！！

我不是不想和他们吃饭，
我不是不爱他们，
我只是想要安静。。
他们根本不了解不明白。。

就算是没节目，没出去都好。。
我也不想和他们出去吃饭。。
只想待在家。。
静静的，
听音乐，
放松，
休息，
回想和肥猪一起开心的时候，
然后睡着。。

这么简单。。
度过每一晚。。